Loved, lost, unexpected

In a span of four days I found out I was pregnant despite being on birth control, got scared, got excited, confirmed the pregnancy at the doctor's office, and lost my pregnancy.  It's been an emotional roller coaster and I'm just exhausted.  Daniel isn't holding up too well either.

Because an ultrasound showed nothing in my uterus, my blood levels have to be checked over the next few days and weeks to make sure my hormone levels are going down.  If they go up, it means I likely have a tubal pregnancy - more common with birth control pill users.

I'm so heartbroken.  It happens all the time.  It was so early.  I know.

I still have my sweet boy though.  And I know that there is something bigger in store for me, my life, and my future babies.

Donovan keeps getting sick at daycare though.  This time it's some sort of eye drainage.  It doesn't look like pink eye to me but daycare isn't taking any chances.  Another day off.  Le sigh.  But I know I can handle it...

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